So, I've been in Sixth Form since September now, and I'm loving it

...the work load is pretty intense though. I sometimes feel as if I'm drowning in work x_X and for the first few months when I started, I had major headaches, cause I was working too hard >.< I can't wait till the summer holidays!!

My fave Chemistry teacher has left, which I'm pretty sad about. He made the lessons pretty cool. Speaking of Chemistry, it's getting dropped after the summer holidays...it's waaay harder than I thought it would be- there's too much complex math involved now, and maths has never been my strong point. I'm kinda sad about it- I really enjoyed Chemistry for the last two years of secondary...but now it's like I'm being left behind.

Psychology's pretty cool, and Business Studies is good too- I can underastand them, so I quite enjoy the lessons.

Photography's been great! I did make a friend in the class, but she had to quit cause of her work load so I sit on a huge table all by myself for two hours every monday and wednesday. The other people in my class are ones who have already got their friend groups, so...
I prefer my monday classes, due to my teacher. He's vwery friendly, and he makes sure I don't feel too left out. My wednesday teacher is kinda...weird? Plus he's very big on 'ones that are doing well.'
I always feel like I'm doing really well till I look at the others work in my class...theirs always seems so much better :/
Plus I really want to do next year's project- you can choose whatever, so I'm going for an Alice in Wonderland inspired project
My exam is next month x_X I have to sit in a room for 5 hours and do my project work, which I suppose isn't too bad...but I like to break it up more, not sit there for 5 hours and do nothing but Photography, I'm scared I'll run out of things to do D;
And I'm the only one in my class who never seems to have any money everyone else has a proper professional/semi-professional camera except me. *sighs*

Plus I've had a few spats with my boyfriend there's this girl in his Chemistry class I really dislike (long story, but I get insanely paranoid about her,) yet he really wants to be her friend. I know it's really really wrong to stop him, but I'm scared...scared he'll like her more than me. She just sometimes seems to be better suited to him than me sometimes...plus she's prettier than me. (It isn't hard to be, I know...my boyfriend wouldn't be happy if he seen I'd typed that I'm not pretty, but I just think I look weird. Doesn't help people shouted stuff at me for years.) The work load hasn't helped us either. Aaaaaargh. I hate growing up sometimes. We seem to be getting better again though, which is good

I can't believe I'm 17 this year o_O I'm gonna have to get a job soon...my EMA's getting cut next year (thank you government >.<,) so...I'll have to see about getting a part time job. I'm scared about my future job though- Photography isn't the easiest job to get into.

I think I finally found out what's wrong with me too. I've had a weird problem since I was about 5. I'm pretty sure I've found what its name is though. I think it's called 'Dermatillomania.' It's a relief to find I'm not the only one who has this problem. I'm not as bad as I used to be, but it's still there, and I wanna kick the habit. :/

Anyways, I've dragged on for long enough
See ya later